Erladino

i want to live a simple life. leave the worries of this modern world. just tell me the end is here, that the worst has happened so i can rest in peace, live calm, knowing it is only uphill from now. things that mattered so much to me suddenly dont. who am i? i will never know, but i will never know ANYONE who ive met. i just fucking--- i want to feel happiness again, how waking up every day dungeoning on PMU made me, or drawing art for a friend from PMU. not worrying about the past, chilhood trauma, depression, suicide. i have it ALL - amazing grades, supportive friends, everything ive wanted....i have...but a troubled past haunts (i think, or it could be something else I DONT KNOW!) why why the fuck do i only have words to communicate myself. this mind moves at 1000 miles per second, and these lips cannot keep up. setinence is a curse. so much pain, everywhere. i cant wait to be 40, done and dusted with everything, living somewhere, abroad, somewhere safe, with a simple job, where  i come back and play video games, take pictures of food i like, watch netflix. into the arms of someone i love. but what about my family? questions, history, trauama, pain. please, someone, take it away, please please please or i will 


as i read this back i cant help but feel someone will read this and feel how BASIC my problems are...but where do i even start. my worries are so unique to my heart, i just...how? where? help!

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Add up, people. ^^

erladino#2979 

If anyone cares, I've been super busy with mocks and CIEs. Good news is, I successfully got into the second best college in my city - The Lyceum, and got a scholarship too. Bad news, I have to maintain 70% grades to keep the shcolarship. x'D 

Drawinggg? Hmm, yeah I've been doodling now and then. Got a whiteboard (to practice calculus, lool) but yeah, that board has seen more pokemon than numberss.

contact me through skype / steam if need be. ^^

...On another note. How is everyone else doing??

Do I still even remember how to draw? @_@